Tuesday, February 28, 2012

sweetness by stephen dunn

Sweetness
Just when it has seemed I couldn’t bear   
   one more friend   
waking with a tumor, one more maniac   

with a perfect reason, often a sweetness   
   has come   
and changed nothing in the world   

except the way I stumbled through it,   
   for a while lost   
in the ignorance of loving   

someone or something, the world shrunk   
   to mouth-size,   
hand-size, and never seeming small.   

I acknowledge there is no sweetness   
   that doesn’t leave a stain,   
no sweetness that’s ever sufficiently sweet ....   

Tonight a friend called to say his lover   
   was killed in a car   
he was driving. His voice was low   

and guttural, he repeated what he needed   
   to repeat, and I repeated   
the one or two words we have for such grief   

until we were speaking only in tones.   
   Often a sweetness comes   
as if on loan, stays just long enough   

to make sense of what it means to be alive,   
   then returns to its dark   
source. As for me, I don’t care   

where it’s been, or what bitter road   
   it’s traveled   
to come so far, to taste so good.

Monday, February 27, 2012

soil-centric

 
from Soil Not Oil by Vandana Shiva

In biology, the term development refers to self-directed, self-regulated, and self-organized evolution from within. In the terms of Chilean scientists Humberto Maturana and Francisco Varela, systems that self-organize and self-renew are autopoietic systems. And in the language of David Pimentel of Cornell, autopoietic systems are based on endosomatic or metabolic energy. If the economic domain were to think of development in the same way, it would lead to a flourishing of biodiversity and cultural diversity. Development would conserve resources and energy while improving human well-being and human welfare.

Unfortunately, development in economics has the opposite meaning. In economics, development is an externally driven process. It refers to self-organizing, self-regulating systems as “undeveloped” and “underdeveloped” and suggest that they should be made dependent on external inputs- external resources, energy, and money. Living systems, living societies, living cultures are thus transformed into mechanical systems, or, in Maturana and Varela's terms, into allopoietic systems- systems run from external sources. In energy terms these are based on exosomatic energy. Systems that are autopoietic and endosomatic need no external energy inputs. They are self-organizing and self-generative. They are models for a post-oil future.
. . .

Development cannot be defined by the colonizer, by those imposing allopoietic systems on society for their own end- profits and power. Development must be defined autopoietically, from within. . . When peasants resist Special Economic Zones and indigenous people resist mines, it is they who should define development, not the automobile, real estate, and mining corporations. This has always been a justice imperative. It is now also a climate imperative.

. . .

Disposability of people is built into the denial of food to millions as well as the destruction of rural livelihoods by the substitution of human energy with machines powered by fossil fuels. The very definition of productivity in the industrial paradigm is labor productivity, i.e., the fewer human beings involved in production, the more “productive” a process is, even if it uses more energy and more resources and produces less per unit of energy and resource inputs.

. . . 


The emerging food crisis poses the most immediate threat to the survival of the poor. The food crisis emerges from two historical processes, one long term- the industrialization of agriculture and the uprooting of peasants and family farmers from the land- and one more recent- the effects of globalization and trade liberalization of agriculture on food security and food sovereignty. The impact of climate change on agricultural production, along with such false solutions to climate change as industrial biofuels, which divert food and land from the poor to the non-sustainable energy needs of the rich, further exacerbate the food crisis.

. . .

Resistance to the limitless destructiveness of the industrialized globalized economy is coming precisely from those least responsible for climate change, the women, the hawkers, and street vendors who stand in front of the juggernaut of fossil fuel-driven, energy- and resource-intensive "development," refusing to be uprooted, refusing to be turned into disposable people, offering another paradigm and world view- of power and wealth, of nature and culture.

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

there is.



there is.

this thing i want to do, it enters
sleep with you. like a dream duo,
who will be engulfed?

circling lakes, i imagine, we have
plenty of them. pack you up
in a tent and carry
us together to a land of silence,
my bones are tethered together
with calcium and romance.
i could be lifted,
i avoid being swept.

step by step, a spiral
unfolding upwards, i am dizzy
and disciplined. what do
your limbs look like beyond
winter, without long sleeves? the distraction
must be postponed, there is a snowplow
up ahead, barely an inch
of knowing you. the trees undress.

like an anchor to employ with caution,
i'd like to root myself in
a landscape or seascape i could
commit to, with seasonal swings, frozen
boundary waters, milky budding thaws.
no fences.

or this, my legs open,
i'm bleeding, it is unlike
religion, it is real
torpor & fervor & transcendence.
i swallow, i allow,
birds & their beaks,
birds & their wings,
beating arms holding exactitudes.
inside, i can feed, there is a nest.

there is a mountain range.
there is a strong wind.
there, next to me, in clear
vision with blue background:

you, body of water.
you, eyes of fire.
you, rolling over.

your left shoulder, elbow, your whole arm.
your left thigh, knee, you are whole. there.
your whole warm face.
my certain hands.

2.16.12

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

by chance, these dreams


last night.  so odd, vivid, long, personal. i woke them up, in my dream.

Monday, February 20, 2012

could have by wislawa szymborska

could have

It could have happened.
It had to happen.
It happened earlier. Later.
Nearer. Farther off.
It happened, but not to you.
You were saved because you were the first.
You were saved because you were the last.
Alone. With others.
On the right. The left.
Because it was raining. Because of the shade.
Because the day was sunny.
You were in luck -- there was a forest.
You were in luck -- there were no trees.
You were in luck -- a rake, a hook, a beam, a brake,
A jamb, a turn, a quarter-inch, an instant . . .
So you're here? Still dizzy from
another dodge, close shave, reprieve?
One hole in the net and you slipped through?
I couldn't be more shocked or
speechless.
Listen,
how your heart pounds inside me.


This poem comes from her View With a Grain of Sand, trans. Stanislaw Baranczak and Clare Cavanagh (New York: Harcourt, Brace, 1996)

Saturday, February 18, 2012

such a favorite.

"blackbirds are the cellos of the deep farms." -anne stevenson

Thursday, February 16, 2012

undone


undone

i'm going to undo
the actions, here
are your words back

off fuck

i unwalked the tracks
boots to wet tressels
feet pointed toward the house

one night, a party, drunk
and partnered we walked
home together

i take myself back to the scene
of happiness, unraveling
each event alone
in re creation

uproot plants
unspool tapes
i throw up food
scream your name backwards

i welcome back all the gestures
of extension, the pile of small
kind generosities. i stretch

my hands out just to notice
the flexibility in my fingers.

i fold, i unfold.
here. i say. stay with me.


01.10.12

Monday, February 13, 2012

swallow the lake by clarence major

Swallow the Lake
gave me things I
could not use.   Then.      Now.
Rain night bursting upon and into —
I shine up-down into Lake Michigan

like the glow from the lights of the Loop.
          Walks. Deaths. Births. Streets.
Things I could not give back —
          or use. Gave me loneliness.
Feelings I could not put into words
          into people. Blank monkeys of the hierarchy!
More deaths! Stupidity and death
turning them on, timing them
          to the beat of my droopy heart,
to my Middle Passage blues
to my self-corroding hate —

In my release, I come to become
          neon iron eyes stainless lungs
blood zinc-gripped steel
I come up abstract —
not able to take their bricks.
          Their tar. Their flesh. Their plastic.
I ran — stung.
Loop fumes hung in my smoky lungs.
          Duped, left with ideas I could not break
                or form,
I crawled through the game.

Illusion illusion and you
          would swear before screaming —
these choked voices in me screaming.

Screaming with crawling thing in the blood,
          screaming the huge immune loneliness.
One becomes immune to the bricks
          to the feelings.
One becomes death.
One becomes each one and every person I become.
And I could not —
          I could not —
I could not whistle and walk in storms
along Lake Michigan's shore.
          Concrete walks. Concrete deaths.
I could not —
I could not swallow the lake.
Clarence Major, "Swallow the Lake" from Configurations: New and Selected Poems 1958-1998.

Sunday, February 12, 2012

learning from books.



from The Girl with the Brown Crayon by Vivian Gussin Paley

The Easy Tree

Perhaps all paths this year do lead to Leo Lionni. The day after her father's story, Reeny asks, “How come no one dies?”. She points to our Leo Lionni bookshelf.
“Yeah they do,” Bruce calls from his checkers game with Walter. “All those little red fish got ate by the big tuna.”
“I mean like a mother or a father, like in Cinderella, or a grandfather.”
“Are you remembering your father's story, that he told us his grandfather died?” I ask.
“I'm remembering about Jenny's mother,” Reeny says. “Will they tell us about that?”
“I doubt it, Reeny.” Unless someone asks.”
Jenny's father and grandmother are coming today. “Not my mother,” Jenny reminded us. She has told us about her mother's death many times. She is willing to repeat the story as often as she is asked and will bring the subject up on her own when she wants to talk about her mother. “I was two years old,” she'll say. “My mother had cancer. That means she was very, very sick. Sometimes I can't remember her face so I get her picture and look at it.”
Mr. Bergen and his mother arrive after lunch. I feel we are entering a three-generational novel, beginning with Jenny's memories and going backward in time. Leo Lionni cannot supply such stories for us. We need real people, real family members to tell us this part of who we are.
“When I was your age,” Mr. Bergen begins, “we had a tree in our little town called 'the easy tree'. That was because everyone in town could climb it, even little children. Then one day I wasn't careful enough and I fell from its lowest branch. I was bruised all over, but my brother said, “Don't tell anyone, okay? We'll say you fell off your bike. Because if you tell them, then we won't have a tree to call the easy tree anymore.”
The children smile at Mr. Bergen. In some way, each one understands that there must always be an easy tree; one cannot give up hope. The elderly Mrs. Bergen looks warmly at her son. “John, you never told me that story. I didn't know you fell out of the easy tree.”
“Should Daddy have told you?” Jenny asks her grandmother. Everyone waits for the answer; this is not the sort of question the children expect in the classroom. But Mrs. Bergen replies comfortably. “Well, your dad trusted his brother to know what was best. Now, children, my story is about a place with no easy tree. When I was little we lived on a farm in Nova Scotia. The ground was so hard you could hardly grow anything. But we were lucky. We had a cow that always gave milk, the sweetest milk ever tasted.”
“Was that the easy tree?” Reeny asks.
Mrs. Bergen looks deeply into Reeny's face. “Come up here, child. Let me give you a hug, may I? You just gave me something good to think about. Our good dependable cow, she certainly was our easy tree. You're absolutely right.”
While Mrs. Bergen finishes her story, in which the cow is lost and then found in the middle of a frozen pond, unable to get off, I can't help wondering if Reeny's ability to use the easy tree as a metaphor is due to the practice we've had in analyzing Leo Lionni.
Yet isn't it more likely the other way around? That is, the Leo Lionni stories and the easy-tree stories work so well because the children come to school knowing how to think about such matters. We need only to give them the proper context in which to demonstrate and fine-tune their natural gifts.
There are, of course, certain contexts each child brings independently. “Was your cow brown?” Reeny asks.
Mrs. Bergen laughs. “Well, yes, mostly brown she was that. We called her Cocoa. Why do you ask, Reeny?”
“Because she's a easy-tree cow. Brown is easy.”


Family Discussion

When Reeny's grandmother picks her up after school I hand her Mr. McMouse. “Will you read this book, Ettie, and tell me what you make of it? We're having trouble with the mirror scene. This is no Swimmy, I can tell you.”
Miss Ettie calls me that evening after dinner. “Vivian, my first thought was, this is what happens to colored folks who hang out with too many white people. They lose their image.”
“That was your first thought. And then. . .?”
“Well, then I talked about it with Reeny and she did not agree with me at all. She said, 'Grandma, if you have friends it's okay.' So then we all talked about the book at dinner. Reeny told us that Walter is the only boy who speaks Polish, but he has lots of friends and he's happy. Then she went on, nonstop, about Cory and Jenny and Bruce and Frederick and Tico and Oliver until we couldn't tell who was in a book and who was real. But, for her, the subject is friendship, plain and simple. Friendship is everything.”
“What did her parents make of Timothy and the mirror?”
“Steve said, 'Every once in a while, I look in the mirror when I'm shaving and I don't know myself. Especially after I've gone and done something mean to someone.' And then my daughter came up with this: Maybe Timothy wasn't even his real name. Maybe it was given to him by humans, and he didn't have mouse friends in the city to call him by his real name. So he had to get back to his own kind in order to know himself.”
“That was a pretty good discussion, Ettie.”
“Wait, it wasn't over. While we were cleaning up, Reeny said, 'That mouse has to dream himself a new name.' And then, as if it was part of the same subject, she said, 'Brown Baby is going to be in my story tomorrow, in my notebook.'”
“Who is Brown Baby?”
“Her imaginary playmate. He never leaves home! Why now? It feels funny knowing she's going to do this.”
“Maybe she'll change her mind,” I suggest.
“Could be. But my Reeny is someone who keeps thinking of new angles. You know what she told me at bedtime? She said, 'Grandma, you forgot something about Swimmy. He was the leader of red fish. Red fish. That means a black fish could be the leader of another color fish.”


from Geraldine

Cleaning up together after school, I say to Nisha, “I thought of a fancy way of describing what's happening to us this year. Narrative continuity. We have discovered another way of achieving narrative continuity.”
Nisha puts down the paint jar she is washing and smiles at me. “I think you once told me that play is narrative continuity.”
“That's exactly the point,” I reply. It feels as though we are marching to that same rhythm, as in play, or as you did when you heard the stories from the great epic every night. Now we are putting Leo Lionni to the test. Can he provide yet another vehicle for this instinctive need to concentrate for a long time on a connected set of images and dramatic events? Let's face it, what school usually does is continually interrupt any attempt on the part of children to recapture the highly focused intensity of play. What we need to do is help them – and ourselves – get back on track.”
Nisha pours out two cups of tea and motions me to the table she has just scrubbed. “You know what the Leo Lionni curriculum reminds me of?” she says. “It's like Hanuman's magic tail. It can grow longer and longer until it can wrap itself around everything and everybody.”

Saturday, February 11, 2012

here. take

here. take

a wing a moan a ship
wreck
the horse sails out on the lake
the bones of the sun fall from no clouds
tiny turkey wishbone,
jaw of snake,
fifteen ribs of a whale

then the teeth come, the aches
of muscles like the tongue
and the usual, heart
here the secrets calcify & petrify
the joints are still and fit together

a hand might fit nicely
into another hand
but we'll never know

8.15.11

Friday, January 27, 2012

the low road by marge piercy

the low road

what can they do
to you?  whatever they want.
they can set you up, they can
bust you, they can break
your fingers, they can
burn your brain with electricity,
blur you with drugs till you
can't walk, can't remember, they can
take your child, wall up
your lover.  they can do anything
you can't stop them
from doing.  how can you stop
them?  alone, you can fight,
you can refuse, you can
take what revenge you can
but they will roll over you.

but two people fighting
back to back can cut through
a mob, a snake-dancing file
can break a cordon, an army
can meet an army.

two people can keep each other
sane, can give support, conviction,
love, massage, hope, sex.
three people are a delegation,
a committee, a wedge.  with four
you can play bridge and start
an organization.  with six
you can rent a whole house,
eat pie for dinner with no
seconds, and hold a fund raising party.
a dozen make a demonstration.
a hundred fill a hall.
a thousand have solidarity and your own newsletter;
ten thousand, power and your own paper;
a hundred thousand, your own media;
ten million, your own country.

it goes on one at a time,
it starts when you care
to act, it starts when you do
it again after they said no,
it starts when you say we
and know who you mean, and each
day you mean one more.

Thursday, January 26, 2012

when you talk to water


when you talk to water

“we found the friction of ice to be very high.” -dr. miguel salmeron

be prepared
for the water to talk back

be willing
to ripple like
undulating fingers &
tiedye rubber bands of light

in a lapping calmness
the water met me at the edge
slowly drinking the day,
hiding under the evening ducks

wish, swish, i pour
longing straight over the rocks
to the end of the exhale

(the universe is the best
matchmaker known to itself)

cold & unloaded i
stand up quickly but wait!
the water!

has a voice it jumps into me

be prepared
for the freeze

even the scientists can't 
explain why, it's slippery, 
these things happen, sense 
comes late and will not be

rushed

lower temperatures have a way
of behaving: strangely, like pressure

so test it with skate & shanty
cube that loose state 
of crystalline

pay clear attention.

nerves get built from cycles
of protection, from strong 
surface reflections. go 
deeper, see god, see liquid
and need, see understanding

remember the potential for merging

remember.
contained boundaries can appear
empty or full, more than half
a heart given. remember.
it all expands, evaporates, returns

this is a toast
to earth and to ice

be prepared
for the thaw

12.17.11

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

this one turned into a song.

covered mirrors

the bitterest fruit hidden under the biggest blanket i could find
here we were, me with her, the reflection forbidden
to pain to gut to uplift to sincere
now gut now kiss now weak goes knees in virtual directions
now gut.kiss.weak.knees
where is this thing going around and around
feels like a hand up my shirt or between her knees i’m frisked it's official
so the letter gets sent, the girls get called, the horses fly out the gates
the mixtape is a copy of a day in the life
the mixtape was a copy
the day was a copy
the life was a copy
the kiss was a cop
holding someone under arrest
or was it a bad joke with a false gun
were you committing crimes
the interrogation had no smoke
who polices these
who polices these
who polices these
parts? you know what i’m speaking of
who polices these
who drives this vehicle with no plates into foggy nights
who plays the fool the fall guy the lookout the hit man
or was it never a hit
didn’t make it to the radio
didn’t dial up a friend
maybe it was just a distraction
the real suspect was spit
shining a mirror
under a dark blanket
face puckered sour,
grieving

march 2011

Sunday, January 22, 2012

a poem by e.e. cummings

here's to opening and upward,to leaf and to sap
and to your (in my arms flowering so new)
self whose eyes smell of the sound of rain

and here's to silent certainly mountains;and to
a disappearing poet of always,snow
and to morning;and to morning's beautiful friend
twilight (and a first dream called ocean) and

let must of it be damned with whomever's afraid
down with ought with because with every brain
which thinks it thinks,nor dares to feel (but up
with joy;and up with laughing and drunkenness)

here's to one undiscoverable guess
of whose mad skill each world of blood is made
(whose fatal songs are moving in the moon


#42 from 100 selected poems

Saturday, January 21, 2012

ballast



ballast

my past fits into a bin
in three separate clothed sizes
the stoned the sexed the overgrown
& felt under

my variety of lies,
they squint
fall out of me like prizes
the computer virus
the computer spams
she pans and pants and pots
the commuter spasms

fucks the fall! & the decent

all i have is
all i have
all i have felled
or falling even
ever eventually
weathered
or wanted
exposed
among
the elements of friend
and don’t foe this up
and don’t admit this fall
you fallen heart you felt me up
i’ve tumbled to my own demure
for better yet it's chaste it's worse
forget by forgiven
think of him
or her
think of this
or them
and that too
blame me for
numb luck
struck doubt
trucked off
lost cows
it is serious
it is seriously
all my fault
this singular circularity
this that doesn’t die
i’ll go blonde trying
and blue to deny it
here it is it never left me
and i i i it it it
can’t be ringedly written
or resembling wrongth
you must be shaded in fields of wine
and acres of grape juice
will suck thumbs again
will suck thumbs again
in silence will suck
this thump
thump
thump
up

2007

Thursday, January 19, 2012

ritual by susan mitchell

susan was my poetry mentor at florida atlantic university

ritual

as one who casts the word bread upon the word waters, testing
as one who not believing something will rise up from
those waters, but not disbelieving either
casts out her voice 

as one curious or hungry or filled with longing breaks
off just the crust of a word, throwing
the way she threw as a girl when everyone

told her that was not the way
to throw and expecting little or nothing
looks into the blackness but the waves

are not black they will be deep
scummed violet and bronze
like a memorial forgotten
                                     would it have made a difference
if she had cast the word thread upon those waters
unspooling what she spoke     sewing

knots and tangles into waves and might
thread return to her as dread or even dead

as one who does not know what it is she wants
but wants her wanting sanctified
and anointed with myrrh and futility     black

the waves are black and laced with white
shrouds which pass
                                         into nothingness and the way
a snowflake vanishes
into the waves her voice cast out from her

she has wanted so long such a lifetime not
knowing what it is she wants

as one who has eaten joy for no good reason
with no idea where it came from
and wept in her sleep forgetting afterward who

embraced her but the next day feeling the loss
as one who casts word after word
into nothingness fillets ruins of foam cresting

so the word lover vanishes into water
and with it go fervor and savior forever
and elixir 
                         as one who keeps opening and closing
so the word birth is buried in earth so
the word breath is lost in death

as one who waits to see the eyes of water
roll back into depth, who waits
to see the depth rolled back and parted so she

can fly through and thinks she sees wings
and knows herself deluded
even though she sees
                                             as one who marked off
her wanting who staked its boundaries and let
nothing cross over to staunch or squander it

as one who says I want therefore I am
as one who saw the word bread float in the word water
before they both sank under
the weight of her wanting

as one who thought she saw something leap
but it may have been the word motion coming back
to her shadow for shadow

what is the hunger to know the other's
hunger built up like an altar

sacrifice she understood the blood
of her hunger wanting hunger for hunger, its
teeth in her flesh the word flesh the word hunger

as one who the more she looked saw less
what little there was she messed into more mess
there was no depiction in it

what would it take to register the quickness
the alacrity to blow out

the candle of the waves the word candle
the voice of the waves the word voice
the living face of the promise of the voice

Susan Mitchell, Best American Poetry 2008,
from The American Poetry Review